Uncontrolled

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Girl
Woman
Mujer
What do you call yourself?

Chica
bonita
Why is “pretty” so important?
Fuck it,
eat chocolate
stay home and watch movies
laugh!
but then

guilt
worry
I’m fat
ugly
not worthy,
he left me because I’m dirty

undeserving

You’re told
“You gave it up too fast!
Men like a challenge
And a nice ass”

Damn it,
Gym
Squat so he cries
over what he lost

he couldn’t care less but

Play hard to get
but not too hard
Be real, be you
Bite off more than you can chew
But not literally
,
Because
Skinny
diet!
Eat less,
be dainty
#bestrong
what now?
Confused
If I had a daughter…

Damn, I hope I have sons.

But sister
I swear, if anyone ever hurts you
But he will
and so will he
Out of control
Just like me

Trying, self-promoting
Why is no one liking my shit?
Am I ugly?
STOP COMPARING
Be daring
But a mystery
history
it haunts you
That one night
you shouldn’t have
What if…?
Then it comes

Your period
thank God.
It’s love and hate
Roe v. Wade
My God
At 19 years, that is a lot to take
Now you’re 20
Twenty-five
it’s been a wild ride

it’s not over
moreover,

Will you ever find true love?
No control
Trust your soul
mate, it’s a goal
You will feel whole

But then:
“Cutie,
So sexy, let me see that smile!”
NO.

Validation
Liberation
Which one guides your mind?

It depends on the day..
Is a feminist ok?

Wear no bra, why not
The straps make me hot
They’re tight, and this thong
Sisqo even made a song
about this stupid piece of clothing
My kryptonite and loathing
ok, just relax
Breathe in
sit back

Baby girl,
It’s ok
I got you any day
Lean in
Lean on
Who can tell us what’s wrong?

What’s ok?
Behave!
Only Momma had that say.

So my sister,
Hermana
friend
I care

I’ll fly across the world,
(if money grew on trees)
to make your heart soar
Spend good energy on me
so I can love you some more

Don’t worry about the rest
no control
could be best.

Sit back.
Relax,
breathe, amor
You can do it
even without knowing
what it is

Live the moment
in control
the present moment
you control

Relax
your control
right now

you are whole

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